cheap dopamine

I opened my phone for five minutes.

I laughed and said, “Wow.”

One reel for happiness.

One for rage.

One to make me want a life I can’t afford.

Dopamine delivered faster than food.

Thumb scrolling like it’s getting paid.

Brain on airplane mode.

I came for one video.

I stayed for Six-Seven.

Now I’m tired, grumpy,

and somehow jealous of a guy with six cars and a podcast.

Did I relax?

No

I just aggressively avoided my life.

The algorithm fed me fake dreams,

killed my focus,

and called it awareness and entertainment.

Time disappeared.

Motivation followed.

And somehow I’m shocked every night like:

“Wow… where did today go?”

Probably down the scroll.